I hate to be so negative, but I really need to get some stuff off my chest...
I feel like shit. I'm not ok, and I haven't been for a very long time. Everyday I wake up miserable, and even classes I used to enjoy feel like chorse. I have so many missing assignments, and they just keep piling up. I'm sick, and every day it feels like I'm getting sicker and there's no cure.
Honestly, I want to die. I'm not going to kill myself or anything, but god, I hate being alive. But I can't die because I have my job and school and my family and friends and so much shit people rely on me for. I'm so fucking selfish. I wish I could just disappear from existence so nobody would remember me or have to deal with the fallout of me being gone.
But all that aside, please don't worry about me. I don't have active plans to commit suicide. I'll push through. What else can I do?
- Rin
(02/22/2026)